In new phases of being, shifts in light create movement from within. Movement that changes my assumptions and beliefs about what is. In these moments of my life, moving koi dance in my sketches and paintings, appearing as I move through periods of transit. New layers and discoveries carry me forward. It is as simple as that.

When my youngest sister had been away for over a year, missing Christmas and family dinners, her absence settled quietly into the house, most visible in my mother. Then, in December, a bouquet arrived, unexpected, carrying her warmth and promises of celebrations when she returned. It held both distance and closeness at once. That is where this painting comes from. Not from a single feeling, but from that contrast, the way something can be both heavy and full of light at the same time. Where absence meets presence.